We received a major blow today. Ashley's AFP test was #24. When we began chemo round III it was 7.3, when we began what we thought was our last chemo her AFP was 13.9 and today just one week after Chemo IV her reading is 24.
This means her cancer is back or it probably never left and she's also become chemo resistent. The doctors haven't told us its back, but I'm just fearing the worst. The doctors said they just don't know yet and we have to wait and see. We'll schedule another CT scan as soon as her ANC levels are back to normal.
I can't begin to tell you what we're thinking. Its not good. I don't know what to do. We don't know if we should tell Whitney. We don't know if Whitney should stay with grandma for a few days while we sort through this in our heads. We don't know what to do.
Tony took Whitney and Ashley for a drive to get Ashley to fall asleep. I feel like a deflated balloon. My chest feels empty like I'm trying to catch my breath but I'm not breathing heavy like one would after running a race. My body feels limp. - April